My life is a constant cycle between improving mentally/spiritually, and regressing. It seems, everytime I have a low point in my life, I wake up and realize I need to do something about it. I then focus and improve myself to the point that life is much more enjoyable, so enjoyable in fact that I experience little pain produced by desire, anger and fear. But with such spiritual attainment, I forget to improve myself, and regress again. I find it pathetic that I need such basic, built in reminders as spiritual pain in order to motivate myself towards spiritual advancement. Do you have a clue as to how to continually improve, even after the pain is left behind? I suspect that my cycles are moving upwards, because I become more sensitive to spiritual pain with each cycle, but is it possible to advance without periodic regression?