That is so true. It`s like blaming other things and `fate` for your own problems. `I can`t help I`m so stubborn, I`m a "Taurus..."` [Andreas]
When I turned 40, I went on my spiritual quest.I read everything that remotely interested me concerning the existance of human beings. One of the books that I read was The Tarot Of The Bohemians`.
I`ve never been into tarot cards, but this was written by a man with the last name of Papus and he was affiliated with The Golden Dawn, Kabalists, and I was very interested in them. At this time, I was doing my yoga, breathing exercise and meditation.
One night I decided to match up a pack of playing cards with the tarot cards explained in the book. This book is supposed to be THE oldest most authentic "tarot bible" around.
I began to go through the book and I began to feel irritable for no reason. I ignored it for awhile, and then I realized that something wasn`t right.
Dr. Chalko, I`ve mentioned before that I don`t overstate things. I`m only telling the truth. I began to notice that it felt like someone was banging on the outside of my aura with their fists. At this time in my life with all of my spiritual adventures going on, I wasn`t as shocked as someone else would be, so I ignored it at first. It became more intense, so I stopped with the cards for a while and stewed about what was happening.
I went back and stifarted again and the banging began again. My stopping and starting with the cards went on for about five or six times. I kept doing it to see if the banging would stop and start and it did.
I finally threw my hands in the air and said very loudly, `I give up`. `I was just curious about the cards and the tarot`. I guessed that it wasn`t something that someone wanted me to be doing. I put the cards away and pouted a bit. It was quite an experience.
I always thought that, like you`ve said, that motive is very important. I`ve always managed to think for myself concerning anything that I might look into. I didn`t see anything wrong with figuring out those cards as long as I didn`t take it seriously. Well, now I think that there are some things that just aren`t OK with our creator.It says something in the Bible about staying away from things like that doesn`t it.
Keeping the mind uncluttered, I can understand, but just investigating something shouldn`t be so very taboo should it? I don`t care about the cards, but I just don`t understand the reaction that I got from whomever.
In the spiritual world, is it a logical place like here with spiritual people communicating with one another? Who was that spirit? that was keeping me from doing that, because there was definitly someone there. That was not a gentle spritual thought from God, it was a kick in the head from someone. Wow.