Until 2000, I was a devotee of Ismaili-Shia-Muslim. Since then I kept losing interest in my sect very quickly. A lot of questions started popping into my head, like, `Am I on the right path?`, `Why are there so many different religions with so many different sects?` and `What`s the proof of my sect being the right one?`
Answers didnÂ’t come until I broke every link with my sect. I took a big step, left my sect in and considered myself only a Muslim from that time onwards. My family was the first one to criticise me; relatives and friends came next. All of them urged me to stay because I was born in that religion. I knew that I wasnÂ’t given a choice at my birth, so, now is the right time to make a choice.
I started researching on Islam and Ismailism, which resulted in discovering many contradictions. I knew then that there was something wrong with Ismailism. I concluded that a religion shouldnÂ’t have any sects or branches at all because it divides the religion.
I became confused like I have never been in my whole life. I didnÂ’t know what was true anymore. When I left my sect, I also left the outer world. I only get out of my house to have a haircut or to buy some books or to take an examination. I don't try hard to seek a job or find a way to earn money because I never liked this concept. Wherever I observed people, I found greed. I saw people fighting for money; people urging others to earn money; people measuring happiness and success on the basis of how much money is earned, and how much property is owned. All of this didnÂ’t seem right to me.
I then continued my search for truth by researching Islam, but something still wasnÂ’t right. My reasoning power became so fierce that now I questioned my religion too. I didnÂ’t find satisfaction in Islam too. I started doubting everything. Nothing seemed to be right. To me everyone looked like a slave carrying out orders of his master with a false smile on his face and a black heart in his body.
In the beginning of this year 2002, I totally disregarded the concept of religions to be true, but the concept of God was still not clear. I always thought: Â“Why would my Creator want me to worship him?Â” and Â“Why would He want me to be afraid of Him?Â” I couldnÂ’t let go of the thought that someone more supreme than humans existed. Anyhow, I stopped using the name GOD, which reminded me of fearing Him and worshipping Him. So, I use the word Creator for Him.
Your book cleared my mind of nearly all the confusions. It seems that some powerful force helped me all the way, maybe because I had given all these things so much thought that all of it started dawning on me. I was so stuck with my beliefs that I couldnÂ’t see the wider picture. Only after leaving Ismailism, I could see its faults. The same happened with Islam. When I disregarded the concept, I made way for a greater knowledge.
Before reading your book, I BELIEVED that the Creator created man to worship Him. Now, at 21 I KNOW the following so well that I have put it as a default signature in my e-mail accounts:Â“The Creator didnÂ’t create man to WORSHIP Him.He created man to LOVE Him.Â”
Now my questions: 1) Do angels and Satan exist?2) Did Creator want the scriptures to be written? 3) Did Creator send messengers and prophets for mankind? 4) Did the Creator want any religion?